My best friend died today. And i don’t know how to process that. I saw her before and after. I know that its true but I still don’t fully feel it. My heart breaks thinking of my kids growing up without her. Not being able to see her playing with them or asking her advice.
I hate that I didn’t see it coming. They say it’s better that she hid it because at least she didn’t push me away. I just wish she had asked for help before it was too late. There’s so much of the story that I’m seeing clearly now and it makes me so angry. But I still loved her. I always wanted to be there for her but so many times I was busy with other things. I wish I had made more time.
It will take some time to process everything. To fully feel the grief and to forgive. She was my oldest friend. For all her flaws she loved me and my family and we loved her. We will always love her.