She’s gone. Really truly gone. It’s been a week today and this is the first time I’ve really let myself feel it. Really let myself cry about it. Like sniveling sobbing can’t breathe crying. She’s just gone. I don’t know what my world looks like without her in it. Everywhere I look in my house there are memories. Things we did together, adventures, gifts. Even if we wouldn’t see each other for months on end, she was my best friend and such a big part of my life. I hope I was a big part of hers too. I hope I brought her even a portion of the joy that she brought my family. There should have been so much more. So many many more memories. But now she’s gone.